YEAHH IM BOUTTA DROP SOME PAST N FUTURE NOW CATCH IT

when we first met , we weere about to beeef? no we had a beef you left mu server .gg/text then came back. then we started talking as a middelware for anika, i remember, you told me eveeyrhing about you situation to me, i genuinly listened to all because i knew you were too mature for your age and damn i was impressed a 15yo acting like it. crazyy. inknew we would have something together back then. friends. enemies, or anything. i never imagined lovers, then time passed by, things became complicated, no lust no lust pure platinoicship betweeen us, i enjoyed every time i spenw tih you, time i spent streaming genshin with you time i spent skipping school just to talk with you time i spent to have a conversation with you i dont regret any of it i loved uit so much i respected you allotttttt

remember our close days when we used to play gewnshin or you watched me stream after both of yus skipping classes. it was so good back then i loved it sooooo much fucking enjoyed eveyr fucking moment aboput it. then we would talk about our cat and other cats and i stilll rememner the icescream pot you showed me with all that chocolate and stiuffs. i remember that. fucking helll come to think of it we came a biggg asss long asss way. i was to respectful towars you back then all respectful all loving all brother hood to u. i gave you some extraordinary love i gave none.

THEN STARTED MY COLLEGE ERA. You, Deepshika, you helped me through my worst phase. I was lonely, suffering, had no hope, no social skills, nothing. I was so anxious, scared, worried, insecure. You gave me comfort in all that. Security. You took care of me. I got addicted to you. I came home just to have a long convo with you. You saved me from everything. I'm gonna cry typing this out but damn, you gave me so much comfort I'll never forget. You took care of me when nobody else did. Not friends, not family, nobody. Only you. I owe you so much for it. I got so attached to you. Fucking hell man, I love you so much.

i knew the attachment would fuck me up, so i decided to cut you off or leave you silently, i didnt want to cause any issue, it hurt so much so so so much but i carried it away just for you to not have any issue with me. i took the burden with my nasty first year college life and left you for both our own good. i left you for a reason i couldnt get attached to you if i did it wouldve been a disaster for both of us, regret guilt depression sorrow everything all together, it hurt yet i left you alone i still apologize for that, you know i dont apologize because if i hadnt it wouldve been weird and we wouldve been done for.

OKAYYY im skipping a few parts before our newyear meet i didnt really like that party and mostly i forgot because eww your past rl fuck it ewww yuck throwing up rn EWWWWWWWW holy fuck im gonna throw up i fucking hate it HATE IT HATE IT ILL BREAK MY FUCKING KEYBOARD OML IM SO MAD RN okkkkkkkk so the main thing. ill restart in the next paragraph.

hmm our actual story part. realest. since you texted me in newyears i knew sum would happen between us i felt it in the air. i knew it. january february. i got this tingling. this spark i felt, this energy i felt within me directed towards you only. wrote your name on my body, my feet my biceps, my veins my body. it belonged to you since then. you just had to ask — it was all yours. all yours my love. you think id write your name on me for no reason? fuck no i had my eyes on you forever. only my eyes. then we started talking, chocolate to kisses on feb. i was waiting for feb 14th to give you something special you deserve. i tested because i never trusted anyone nor anything. im sorry but i was at a state where i believed that love wasnt real. you changed me deepshika, you changed my point of view, you changed how i think about the romantic aspect of life. i started believing in love because of you — only because of you. ive never believed in love till i met you. i believe now and im fucking sure its real between us. i only need you and nobody else. i only want you. read carefully. carefully... i only need you and nobody else and ill die for you. fucking hell im in love — even coded a website at 5am for the LOVE OF MY LIFE. I FUCKING LOVE BEING IN LOVE.